The list of things I was/am afraid of, especially in the last couple of years:
- Going bald
- Being underweight
- Not earning ‘sufficient’ money
- Writer’s block
- Artist’s block
- Stumbling during ‘crucial’ conversations
- Inconveniencing other people
- Death
- What if I can’t find employment?
- What if I have to do the same thing for the rest of my life?
- What if all my “what ifs” came true?
- Where is everyone?
- Sitting idle
- Unfinished lists
- And so on…
Did I overcome all my fears? Absolutely… not. Why create this unnecessary pressure on myself to try and overcome all my fears? I am still scared of a lot of things. And that’s okay.
Today was full of uncertainties. But… mazaa aya
Bonus — Film recommendation: Orion and the Dark